Oh boy… what a few months it’s been. Lol. The last time I wrote a blog post it was only day 16 of quarantine. And while quarantine is “semi-over,” things are still weird and off.
I am still working really hard trying to find a job. I go through many moments of extreme sadness when I think about my lack of purpose. I know this feeling will go away once something sticks, but I’ve been working at this for over a year now. I never imagined it would take me this long to find a position. Granted, I am being a bit picky, I really want something I’m going to enjoy. That narrows my options a bit and I know that makes it harder to get something. But… I still have hope that something will meet my expectations. I hope!
Besides a job, things have been a little rough because of my dark-ish bedroom. I live in a very small studio apartment that faces north, which means the sun never streams through my window at any point during the day. I’ve learned just how important sunlight is to my mental state and my overall mood. I’ve always had pretty well-lit spaces to live in the past, so I think this room came as a shock to my system. I’ve been embracing it though, I turn on my lamps and string lights to give the room a more “cottagecore cozy” feel to it. And it helps! I know I’m holding out for a beautiful bright space soon.
I actually did start to do freelancing! This past few months, it’s dawned on me that I could work towards being a product photographer. That job has everything I love all in one. I thought the best way to start is to just do it, so I signed up for Upwork and ended up getting my first client! I spent about 2 weeks taking photos for a cute online jewelry company. She had 175 pieces, and I took over 350 photos. It was not the easiest, though. There aren’t a lot of elements in my favor for this- ha. My apartment is tiny, the lighting is only good when the item is directly next to the window, but my AC unit blocks the bottom of my window so I have to raise the flatlay board up and stand on a chair with the tripod on its tallest setting in order to get a decent shot. I also have to lower the shutter speed which means the camera HAS to be on a tripod or the photos will come out shaky. I also only have one working lens that has a VERY shot focal length, no zoom opportunities, and I have a pretty old camera body. My entire camera system needs an upgrade. Maybe when Christmas comes…
Lastly, I am hoping to make friends in the city soon. I have my boyfriend here which helps me a ton, but I need a couple of gal pals too. I am trying to get that going… we’ll see what happens!
Anyway, that’s my update. I am pushing through, and I have so much to be thankful for. I know life has been pretty trying for me, especially the past two months, but I know it’ll all be worth it somehow.